In the last few months, several of my closest friends and I have had a breaking up of sorts.
First, there was Kelly. Her and I had been close for about a year, had been very flirtatious towards each other, and when we both started seeing other people I said we needed to stop talking to each other like that. She hasn’t said a word to me since.
There was this girl Shannon, who my friend Jiahn warned me not to talk to but I ignored his advice. I knew Jiahn and Shannon had hooked up, and I knew she was an absolute terrible person but she seemed lonely so I wanted to befriend her. The one time we hung out, we did nothing but watch a movie. Two days later, her fiance calls me screaming about how I raped her. It seems on her birthday she got shitfaced and decided to call him while he was also shitfaced and bullshit to him. I told him I wouldn’t talk to her or him again, if he would just leave me alone. He claimed if he ever saw me, he’d beat the shit out of me. Saw him back in August, and confronted him in a room full of people. He didn’t say a word and just started at the table.
Then there was my cousin, Krista. We met each other only a few years ago and in that short amount of time, she became the person I trusted more than anyone. I can no longer talk to her for any length of time without becoming incredibly angry simply because she does nothing but judge others when her own life is just horrid. She makes the same mistakes over and over again, but doesn’t see them. I can’t watch it anymore, and it doesn’t help she needs to criticize my own life when she doesn’t know it anymore. We were very similar when we first met, but now we will never see eye to eye again. Part of me misses her dearly, but part of me knows I can never have that relationship with her again. We want different things in life, and honestly the pain she causes me is worse than she’d ever know.